It's funny the emails and comments I get about this blog. People forget it is my diary online. Paper diaries don't follow a particular line, often are written in different inks and penmanship varies from day to day. It is the same online. Some days are boring, some funny, and others are sad. Each entry strings together to create a mental photo in time of a persons thoughts on any given day.
Some days are too busy to write. I am working out everyday and back to meditating. Brian's summer has begun and managing his days is another part time job in itself. An x boss and good friend has come to work at the office. There is laughter in my days.
McYummy ran a marathon in LA this past weekend. We are both making strides with our dreams. I fear his book may get published first and this could really piss me off (laugh). KIDDING.
Dale, my other x boss and our broker came up for a visit. A group of us went to lunch. Steph met him and whispered "Wow he'd be perfect for you". Ha ha. I do agree, except he is a happily married man who is very committed to his family. He is like Monopoly money to me. He does take good care of me, and sometimes it is better to have great men as friends so we don't fu** it up and loose them. Savvy?
It's interesting how I now find myself surrounded by quality men and my x husband even stepped up to the plate. Maybe I had to get sick to be vulnerable enough to allow in a different type of man (or MEN) to my life. Even my girlfriends are a wonderful, brilliant selective few. I don't want to go back to what was around before.
My x husband observes, "The men you have dated (that I have seen) all seem like angry men with a chip on their shoulder and a couple of your female friends did too". Well, I suppose it would take one to know one, but I'd have to agree. He has commented that it is good to see that I have improved my standards. Well...one could only go up (laugh). But really I just stopped caring and got on with getting well, pursuing a dream and focusing on Brian. Everything else just seemed to fall into place.
Ok, unless it falls apart.
HA!
C